Leaving Christianity Journey to the Truth Pt1

As Salaam Alaykuna

This blog is an issue that is familiar to a lot of us. Born in the US a lot of us come from a family with strong Christian and Baptist backgrounds. I know for me I was raised in a family who owned a church, and my Great Grandmother was a preacher. I didn't spend every Suday in church, but we attend for the annul Mother's Day, and easter etc. As a child I never really understood religion to me it wasn't clear. As I grew up in my teenage years, I started to get into history a lot and seeking knowledge about different cultures. My grandmother on my father side passed away when I was 18 and my aunt gave me her Bible. Which I still hold dear to me. I started to read the bible from front to back and I came across info that made me ponder over who exactly God was because I was raised on believing Jesus was God. The book was leading me to different info. Me being young I look past that and continued on life as a Christian

Fast forward I became a mother at 25, had my daughter. I was in a bad relationship that has a lot of physical abuse. Which cause a shift in my life. I began praying to God daily to change my situation and boom he did. Fast forward Around 29 I had a life changing experience; my boyfriend was murdered (not my daughter father). That experience led me, wanting to be closer to God. So, I began attending church. I remember sitting In New Destiny Church in my city of Wilmington De and hearing the preacher and the congregation calling Isa A.s. (Jesus) God and instantly I started remembering the versus from the bible that said God was one, and that Isa AS prayed with his face on the ground. Which made wonder why the book is saying something different than what the church is saying. I began to ask God to guide me because I didn't understand. The more and more I read the bible the more and more I know Jesus AS wasn't God and that the trinity didn't make sense. I stop attending church and came across a book on Nation of Islam from a bookstore in my city. I didn't know much; I had an uncle who was NOI, but he smoked weed and still celebrated holidays so that made me confused on their belief. I learned my city had a local NOI mosque. I wanted to attend, so I covered my body the best I could, and I attend their service. It was quite the experience, while I sat in the mosque surrounded by sisters in all white all I heard was hate felt speech about Caucasians. What I did know God did not preach Hate, so I know this could not be Gods truth. I was back on my journey to seeking out the truth. I truly felt in my heart that I should be worshiping one God with love and submission. Fast Foward, now I'm 30 and my cousin had a Muslim find who would come to visit him a lot. One day he brought his sister who was fully covered, and I was sooo intrigued that I couldn't stop asking her questions about Islam. It just made sense everything she said was like a fresh glass of water on a 100-degree day. It was refreshing. After our conversation my cousin said, "you're going to become a Muslim you can't stop talking about it". He seen the spark in my eye. I instantly feel in love with how she looked in full hijab, and the info she explained about Tawheed to me. Now my heart yearns for more information. I went to my local bookstore and brought a Quran. I began researching the religion and every day I feel in love with the religion. I was on a journey for truth. Allah says in the Quran " And those who strive hard for us we will certainly guide them in our way, and verily Allah is with the good doers" Surah Luqman :6

Stay Tuned for our next Blog for the Next Chapter in Journey for the Truth.